2001-12-20 - 1:42 AM
The "Your Song"s In Life Are Precious And Few
So, one day, I met this girl named Rosan Tan. Actually, I can't really finish that story, since I don't remember how or when we met. <=0P Although we went to the same high school, I don't think I actually met her or at least had more than a mere small talk convo with her until the early BLD era (BLD stands for Bukas Loob Sa Diyos - a prayer group that I sporadically go to nowadays). In any such case, she's one cool chica - and I hope she knows she can always come to me with anything, even if she may not consider us "close friends". I'm always around to give her my two cents when she gives me "hypotheticals" involving men. I mean, I'm an ex-player in the "game", sadly. Hehe. So I know all the tricks, mindsets, and what have you. But even if her problems don't concern that trite shit, I hope she really does know she could come to me. So yes, this is her random shout out - on the spot and well-deserved. Now if only she had a journal of her own, she could reciprocate this action and shout ME out. But alas, she does not. Hehe. S'all good though.
I've had about three minutes of sleep the past few days - I've been really busy - especially with all the visitors I've had the past several days. But it's all been really nice. Chillin' with my best friend John, my other best friend Adrie - with Chris even though she lives here - seeing Rae, Marty and "babe-sitting" Diane (dry-humping her against the wall, ahem ahem, haha) - all of it, just pure fun and nice. The other day, I was on the phone with ERIC, MY BRO IN UTAH!!! That was great. And tonight, Audz and I got to talk - and our exchange of "I honestly miss you"s really did put a smile on my face and a joy in my chest. I loved it. So everything's been pure frosting recently, despite my academic failures and negative internal conflicts.
I'm listening to "Your Song" right now, over and over. I'm not listening to the Elton John original though. I'm listening to Ewan McGregor's version from Moulin Rouge. It's so great. And you know what, Ewan's the fuckin' man - seriously. He picks awesome roles, and he just has this on-screen charisma and overall charm that you rarely see in films nowadays. Plus he has a cool accent. Sometimes I just wish I had one. <=0)
HmMm...and on to a different caboose on this train of thought. I really have this strange yet unbelievably powerful urge to watch Romeo & Juliet right now (the Baz Luhrman, Leo and Claire version). I don't know why. But I REALLY wanna watch it - yet, disappointingly, I don't have it. <=0( Whenever I try to DL it, something happens, and it messes up. So I've given up - I'll just play the movie in my mind.
And yes...I am a perfectionist, Rosan. Hehe.
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I don't think things are sinking in just yet - with all the change to come (or more precisely, probable to come, since things aren't definite yet). But I broke the news to my suitemates today, and they were all in shock and they were all saddened, of course. But nobody matched Michael yesterday when I told him - he nearly suffocated me with his constant hugging and his tears that he held back were almost shining through. I would've cried, but I held it back - didn't wanna cry at that moment. I really will miss everybody - the many many people I've befriended here. But eh, I'd rather not delve back into that meloncholy subject.
The Beatles' "Free As A Bird" just came on - I'm wishing I were as free as a bird right now.
*le sigh*
Wow, this entry is really all-over-the-place. Whatever though, one more entry - one more entry closer to Eric's number of entries, the bastard. I love him.
Anyways, I should probably end this one now - but most likely, I'll get into bed and stare at my ceiling. Then I'll think about so many things that I want to say, and end up getting up to make another entry. So if you wish it enough, you'll probably get another entry within the next few hours. So wish it! But then again, I should really sleep so I can wake up and study for this last exam. After this exam, I have a month of freedom. God, I love that statement. I really do.
So yes, my avid online audience, I shall sally forth to better frontiers - draped in bedsheets and laced with linen, cushioned by a body pillow and other smaller ones of the sort. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh - sleep is gonna be good.
I can taste it.
I hope Morpheus and I have a long conversation tonight.
