2002-01-20 - 12:47 AM
And The 90th Journal Entry Goes To...(Drum Roll)...Part 2
I trust that things must fall into place. Eric's 90th entry is dedicated to Adrie. Adrie wants to be included in my newest entry. This is my newest, and my 90th. It fits.
It's also fitting because, after our conversations today, I kind of wanted to have an entry about her - again. If you've noticed, she's in many of my entries - this being her 17th to be exact.
lLyricalCloudl: but yeah...u have the control...cuz if i don't hear from you - i get worried, and i miss you more than you'd miss me, in my opinion
sxiswtie 83: oh, whatever
sxiswtie 83: that's not true
sxiswtie 83: why do you think i call you so much
lLyricalCloudl: it's something i always think about! cuz i feel like your replaceable friend...when i can't even imagine what it would be like to not have you around
sxiswtie 83: ewwwww oh whatever
sxiswtie 83: why would you be a replaceable friend
lLyricalCloudl: i don't know - i just feel like that
sxiswtie 83: that's not true at all
lLyricalCloudl: well, i just feel like that
sxiswtie 83: well you shouldn't
sxiswtie 83: and how come you never told me this
lLyricalCloudl: sometimes, i still try to impress you...kinda like a justification to oppose my feelings of inadequacy
sxiswtie 83: impress me???
sxiswtie 83: how?
lLyricalCloudl: i dunno - i've run out of things...u've grown so accustomed to me and my "talents"...that i just dunno......and i always try to aim to stick out in ur memory when u think of ur friends...so i try to keep up being funny and making u laugh and all
lLyricalCloudl: yano?
sxiswtie 83: you don't have to impress me ya know
sxiswtie 83: itz not like i'm gonna stop being your friend because i'm bored or something
lLyricalCloudl: i fear that
lLyricalCloudl: it's a weird mechanism in me
lLyricalCloudl: if u get bored with me...i'll fade away...and what will i have?
lLyricalCloudl: john on holidays?
lLyricalCloudl: hehe - actually, that's pretty nice, john on holidays
lLyricalCloudl: *wink wink*
sxiswtie 83: i won't get bored of you
sxiswtie 83: you're my best friend
sxiswtie 83: and thats it
lLyricalCloudl: you know - after i got off the phone with you today...i kinda...didn't start the movie yet...cuz i was tearing up...cuz i was thinking about how great it is to have you as a best friend...cuz even our pointless phone conversations make my damn day...and i know i don't call you...but...i dunno, maybe subconsciously, i need to be reminded that you care enough to call me...so i wait
lLyricalCloudl: *shrug*
lLyricalCloudl: whoa, austin - let go a tear there, what's wrong with you?
sxiswtie 83: awww, austin
sxiswtie 83: hey, i know this is probably way off, but by "replaceable friend" you don't think i'm gonna replace you with eric or something do you?
lLyricalCloudl: sometimes i think that...but, i still felt like the replaceable friend before you met eric
sxiswtie 83: why would you think that
lLyricalCloudl: i don't know
...
lLyricalCloudl: thanks a lot
sxiswtie 83: what?
lLyricalCloudl: i have that weird dry face feeling you get after you cry
sxiswtie 83: i can't believe you cried
lLyricalCloudl: haha - i mean, i just did also
lLyricalCloudl: hahaha
lLyricalCloudl: i told kristen everything
lLyricalCloudl: and now she's gonna cry
lLyricalCloudl: so u've made the both of us cry
lLyricalCloudl: plus, we're listening to "i could fall in love' by selena
sxiswtie 83: u told kristen about crying over me?
lLyricalCloudl: yeah
sxiswtie 83: y'know, i don't know why you feel like the replaceable friend
sxiswtie 83: i think i should feel like that
sxiswtie 83: you're the one with 22 million different best friends
sxiswtie 83: and the 22 million different girls that want to talk to you
lLyricalCloudl: i'll have you know that it's only 21 and three quarter million.....hehehe...........but they don't mean as much compared to you
sxiswtie 83: awww
sxiswtie 83: let me just take a moment to feel special
lLyricalCloudl: haha
sxiswtie 83: ok, i'm done
Yes, such a pleasant "we" we are. Did I just say wee wee? In any case, seems fitting, how everything is. Adrie, you better be happy, being both of our 90th entries. Hehe. And girls, get jealous, ready the prank calls - Adrie's my best friend. Haha.
