2002-02-26 - 9:29 AM
A Dream To Dream Untrue
"It's a beautiful morning. I think I'll go outside for awhile - and smile." - Young Rascals
Yes, it IS a beautiful morning, so bright. I'm glad that I'm able to wake up to another one of these. I mean, after the car crash - as cliche as it seems - it really opens your eyes.
My sleep was, I must say, quite awkward (nothing unusual to me really). Aren't dreams supposed to take your stresses, worries, and overall emotions, and hide them under often obscure and mind-boggling images? Last night, the feelings I had inside, were layed out quite conspicuously for me to view (in my dreams, of course). I pined after the undeserving girl - only to get hurt as she told me she didn't want me, at least, not anymore. We all know what that's talking about. But trust me, it was just nostalgia, like I stated in my previous entry. The scene switched instantaneously - and I was running through a place, where each room was infested with insects, beasts, and the overall summation of the mythic underworld. I was scared, with only one or two others that I could trust - as we tried to find a way out. Could this be talking about the incessant problems that seem to plague my house every single damn day? And could those couple others just be the ones in my life that I can escape to? Of course - in my belief. It was incredibly strange, for the way I reached that ungodly place, was through mining a passage through walls of earth. There was only enough space to crawl, as the earth scraped my whole body. I'm not a textbook claustrophobic, persay - but I was damn well scared being in such a tight spot. I feared cave-in. I feared suffocation. I feared death. The same things I fear while awake. No doubt this all pointed to my recent thoughts and emotions. So all in all, my dream was obvious and flat-out. I woke up with that eerie feeling again, of just leaving a world behind. It's crazy when you really think about it.
But yeah, I really should get going now, I figure I'll update later on today after classes. This is my first day back to classes, by the way, after the accident, that is. I'm a tad nervous, don't ask me why. I couldn't tell ya. But I'll deal. We'll just see what happens. Well, I must go, and sometime in the future - I'll discuss that near-fatal car crash. But for now, take care, stay safe, and God bless. Have a wonderful day - and no matter how shitty it can get, it's still so wonderful for the day to even be there.
Over and out.
