2002-03-04 - 11:41 AM
O0o - Escape Velocity (Sun-Drenched) - o0O
It's another bright and shiny day in New Jersey. The radiating sun, mixed with the orange to yellow that makes the sky look like melted butter, making the world ever so brilliant and new. Meanwhile, the sheer magnificence of it all, relegates me into feeling somewhat small and insignificant, comparitively miniscule to the beauty of the sun-drenched earth that holds me - yet at the same time, to behold such a dream, urges me into a feeling of regality. Only lords and kings deserve to bear witness to such beauty, to stand in awe of simple rays and billowing clouds rolling along all types of green. Right? But I'm here, humbled and pious peasant, soaking in the sun; I'll consider it all a gift, from God to me. And from me to God, I hope I can return one as well. Pretty soon, I'll step outside, because these windows are holding back too much. And once I'm out there, I'll try to feel that innocent freedom again - the kind you felt when you were just a child. The kind that made you close those tainted eyes, open your arms real wide, and just bathe in the pulchritude of a fine day. I'll feel the whispering wind caress my skin, imagine I'm seeing the one I love. I'll imagine that the tickling breeze is the tingly feeling you get all over, when you're just breathing in the same air as the one on your mind. I'll imagine that the coolness, is the chill that creeps up the spine, passing the butterflies in your stomach, like the passionate nervousness of a first love - the gentle breeze being the physical realization, of the feeling you get when you see the one meant-to-be of your life. So yes, in a few short moments, I'm going to try and regain what I think we've all lost - the ability to be touched, the innocence in my eyes - the feeling in my skin. I want to feel like a kid again. I want to fully appreciate the gift I'm receiving. And I want to live life knowing I'm making the best of it all, taking in everything that needs to be taken in. Making sure this everyday gift isn't going to poor use, and isn't wasted on me being inappreciative or overlooking. I want to take this gift, from me to God - and I want to give one back. I trust God'll be happy, if all I do is appreciate his gifts, utilize them, and put it all to great use. So I'm going to take this morning, this sun-drenched morning, and use it. I'm going to use it to make myself remember everything it is, that I've forgetten, to remember what it's like to feel loved, to feel child-like - I'm going to use it to put things in perspective. How can you go on worrying about due dates of video rentals, or how many miles you can get to the gallon, when there's a beautiful day out, ready for you to take it in? I mean, how can you miss what's laid out before you? How can you do that? I guess...
You gotta be going pretty fast - to not notice the wonders of it all.
